Good morning 2018
Its nice to finally meet you, I am only saying this today
because I only sobered up on the 2nd of January and then was sick
until the 3rd… it only seems right that today is the first day of
the year for me.
I just realised I only wrote 7 blog posts last year… It’s not
that nothing happened, but that everything happened all at once. It passed in a blur of cycling, cooking, baking, laughing, crying and all the rest.
What has this
year been like for everyone? I was sick yesterday so of course I scrolled
through FB millions of times and it seems like most of my friends and happy and
wowzerssss… super successful… haha.. of course this could just be our FB image… So when you have time write me something real about your year.. I am curious. I
can’t pretend that this whole year was a piece of cake… though there were many
pieces of cake in this year.. get it???
Just to be totally real with you, I am still a penniless
fool struggling through life… I do not pretend to be anything else, because I
don’t want anyone to look at me and in any way feel intimidated (I don’t think
its possible.. but just in case) and say to themselves ‘wow look at that, some
people are really doing well’.. in terms of plain old success and countability
of gold and shit like that.. I am not doing too well.. Thankfully I am not
measuring my life by those means.. at least I try not to. I seem to abound in
hilarious moments, friendships, love, adventures, excitement and fun… I
wouldn’t trade these for anything… this year has just been an absolute treasure
in these ways and I am happy with it.
Highlights from the year… oh well let’s take a looksee

My messengering was pretty good… I cycled more this year than any other year.. I also got 2 fines, had 2 collisions with cars and crashed full force into a wall, bending the fork on my bike and bruising myself just about everywhere… oh well… never mind… I love that job, It makes me happy and confident. I love the crew at PP and this year felt closer with them.. so there ya go… I can now ride a bike around a city and earn something from it… I might have a hilarious amount of mishaps… but I am still a messenger. I might not be the best one, but I improved.
Culture Exchange… it seems to be slowly ticking along,
making progress. Very, very slowly mind you… well it just wouldn’t be right to
rush things would it? I mean who wants to be super successful immediately… well
that would just ruin the fun… at least that seems to be the way the Gods of
fate are playing it.. and what I am telling myself of course. I did experience so so many conflicting
emotional times with the CE here… Culture Exchange as a whole.. Well it’s just
been an emotional rollercoaster from day 1, and it does not seem to want to
give me a break.
The Culture Exchange in Novi Sad also closed this year, a sad
but remarkable moment and ended a chapter that was forever going on and on in
my mind. It was a sentence that no matter how long and poetic, needed a full
stop. It felt like something on the edge
of life and death for such a long time now. It’s last and memorable evening ended
with a truly triumphant party, which gave me hope for the future. No matter what
has happened, it was a beautiful thing, and it always gives me courage that
everything can happen… anything can happen.

What beauties of life can I expect from this next 12
sections of weeks, days and hours that we can a year… moments of time.. it’s
all a long string of moments.
My life this next year is going to change a lot, I can feel
it. I can’t share it all with you in this post but let’s just say that my time
in Graz, my time with Culture Exchange is coming to a big turning point and I
am sure the chaotic, beautiful seas of change are going to once again push me
to exploring new levels of myself and of this world around me.
When I thought about cementing goals for the New Year, I felt
a bit unmotivated. It’s not that I don’t have ideas and passion for the future…
It’s just I am not sure that putting my goals from January forward and
projecting them into the whole year is for me. I did most of my goals last year…
I did a long bike trip, I improved in my messengering, I did sort of improve my
German…, however some I did not complete. I did not really go forward in some
of the hobbies that I had thought I would like to learn more about. I think I will be making more concise goals
weekly or monthly and thinking more clearly about what I would like to see
happen or expect from myself.
So guys, hear from you soon