Interview with Daniel Lukas and Jake Gilkinson

Bike trip from London to Istanbul

Last year in May I met two guys cycling from UK to Istanbul. During their cycling trip they got caught in the huge floods that were across Serbia and Bosnia, but it did not stop them, they cycled through the whole 3 days of rain and made it to Istanbul in good time. I was really impressed by both of their positivity and the fact that they were so young, just 18 years old… I would have been really scared to take on an adventure like that when I was 18. I love the fact that they just did what they wanted to do and didn't prepare too much, so many times I am working so hard to prepare for something that in the end I dont think I can actually manage, I guess I already used most of my energy in thinking too much and hard about something, less talking... more doing is how we should live. They had lots of cool stories to share with us, some pretty horrific accidents and lots of great moments. I asked them to write something for my blog about their bike trip, I hope you enjoy the read.

1.       Can you briefly describe your journey, how far you went and how long it took 

We cycled 2036.7miles from our homes in South London to the gateway to Asia, Istanbul. The journey took us through 11 countries across Europe.

2.       Can you tell us what made you want to do a trip like this

We had just wanted to get away from home and work for a considerable amount of time and not costing us too much money.  We wanted to visit countries we have never been before and we also knew some people along the way that we wanted to see. We are both adventurous and like to challenge our selves so this would be the perfect trip. Moreover Daniel had previously cycled to Africa with his Dad and he want to carry on the tradition of going to a new continent for the first time by bicycle. We also wanted to raise money for some charities, one being Crohns and Colitis and the other a jungle hospital in Honduras.

 

 3.   How much did you prepare and what did you prepare

We did not do much extra training, as we knew that we wouldn’t cycle at a fast pace. We also cycled in our day-to-day lives to and from work and around London as it is the best way to get round. We had to sort out lot with equipment such as bike and bags and camping equipment. We didn’t over prepare, we thought if we had any problems, we could sort them out along the way.

 4. What were the hardest parts of the trip for you

Although Serbia had by far the most welcoming people, it was not without its problems with the never-ending potholes and huge floods.  We got very cold. Istanbul was very dangerous, but we could see the end at that point. Also finding somewhere to sleep.

 5. What is the best and more rewarding part of these kinds of journeys

Meeting people, hospitality, appreciating little comforts, slow way to travel, getting to see so much more, it keeps you fit, and not knowing what was going to happen that day. 

 6. What stood out to you as something important that you learned on the trip

Patience and sharing, living with someone for 24 hours a day. A lot of really helpful people. How to start a fire without matches and when its been raining for 3 days and how to cook good rice.

 7. Will you continue cycling, what are your plans?

Yes! Almost everyday around town. And we are planning to do a shorter trip form south to north of Sweden this summer as we do not have as much time

 8. What advice would you give to other people who want to do a similar trip

Set some time aside and see what happens. You will learn along the way, you don’t have to be super fit or prepared. Don’t overthink it too much. Relish in the unknown,

Interview with Lola Kapris

she lives here

This is an interview with my friend Lola, who has been living and working in Hong Kong for the last few months. 

I think this is a great story, because she is from Serbia and really went for what she wanted and got herself somewhere different and changed her life. Lots of my friends in Serbia feel kind of trapped here, without much hope for the future. I understand that it is easier for me to travel and fulfil my dreams with my British passport and freedom to go where I want to go, but I do think its possible for anyone to make and break if its what they really want to do. I have known Lola for around 5 years and I have seen her go through so many things. I know that to get to where she is today she struggled through so many things and tried many, many times before she was successful. I saw her at many times really discouraged from her efforts, she wrote so many different interviews and sent her CV to lots of places before she actually got accepted for Hong Kong. She also had a lot of options fall through and things go wrong at the last minute, including her visa for Hong Kong, which took an extra 2 months, where she was waiting and did not know if she would even get it.

I have seen her go through ups and downs and I really respect her and think that her story is especially inspirational. Enjoy the interview everyone

1. Explain to us what you are doing in Hong Kong, and how your life is like there?

My official title is ‘International tutor’ and my job includes teaching English, organizing interactive workshops and ESL activities as well as providing pastoral care to the students in my student hostel. My life here is pretty nice. Hong Kong is an amazing, vibrant place to live in because it has a huge variety of food, especially Asian food from all over Asia, a lot of expats just like me, a transportation system that’s one of the best in the world, as well as a very low crime rate. So believe it or not, even if you lose your wallet or phone, there’s a higher chance it will be returned to you safely rather than it disappearing (which did happen to my friend, twice… so yeah). All I do here is work until 4 pm mostly (my working hours are flexible) and then I go and eat some nice food and meet friends in the evening to either eat again (warning: it’s easy to get fat here) or go to happy hours that are easy to find. On special days, we go and visit temples or go hiking and so on, so it’s pretty awesome. Lot’s to do.

2. What was the journey you went through to get to where you are now?

Umm, well, back in Serbia I had three jobs (including working in the café which I loved and miss so much) but none of them were lucrative enough to give me a nice life, so I had to look for something better, because I was really low on money. I had to go through a lot of different job interviews and turn downs before I got this one, so it was really stressful, but definitely worth waiting for.

3. For a young person coming from Serbia what are the obstacles you faced to find a job in Hong Kong?

Well, it’s always great when people ask you where you’re from and you say Serbia and they’re like ‘Oh..’ in a tone filled with disappointment, but for me personally, it was hard to get an English teaching job because they wanted native speakers and obviously I’m not one, so I had to prove that I was good enough to work with native speakers. It was a challenge for sure, but actually we’ve all established that it’s better to have both native speakers and people like me, because students can relate more to me (because English is my second language too) while they can learn more about the culture and study abroad programs from them, so it’s basically a win-win situation.

4. What advice would you give for other young people who want to do something similar?

Do it. We’re young now and now is the best time to take risks and discover what it is that you want to do in life. If you decide to leave your comfort zone and explore, you’ll learn so much more about yourself and how to be alone, make new friends, overcome obstacles at work, get in touch with your roots even more and grow in so many different ways. The biggest lesson I learnt from this experience is that the world is so small and that nothing is impossible if you really put your mind to it. There are no excuses. All you need to do is work, work, work. :D

5. What motivated you to push through until you got to where you needed to go?

Mostly the fact that I had no more money and that I would probably get sick if I continued in that pace. There were only two options for me and they were either go and get a better life or stay and be miserable forever. So I chose to go and even though I miss my boyfriend, family and friends (who gave me so much support through all this) and other things about my country, there are still many more opportunities here for me to pursue and become who I want to be eventually. I chose to be happier, simple as that.

6. What do you see happening in your future and where do you want to go from here?

So many things need to happen in my future. I want to become a better teacher, get even more certificates and my master degree, try to work in other countries too and see how they do things. I want to learn a lot about teaching, to see how education is changing and be a part of that change. 

where she really belongs... at CE with me :)

Her teaching crew in Hong Kong

 

Pretending to be….life lessons on making bikes, ego, and who we pretend to be

Today I completed the building of a bike that I had been working on for around 4 months (yeah I know how slow I am). I started trying to learn more about bikes the last couple of years. I guess I really wanted to be good at it, because I thought it was cool… also I do love cycling, but I thought the idea of a girl bike mechanic was very cool. The problem with trying to do something only because you think its cool is that its not actually following your real passion and skills, of course I think we grow in everything we try to learn. However if you are not truly passionate and are only doing it for the name… it really cannot go further then a certain level. You cannot fake passion, I have recently seen that my desire to make  bikes, stems a lot from ego, self-absorption and a desire to appear something good before other people. How did I come to this conclusion? I saw that in making one bike, 4 different people had to assist me greatly, I couldn't actually bring myself to do it all myself, then I post my bike on facebook… its like… yes I did it… well yes, but with a LOT of help.  I know I always want to be good at things when I see that others are doing them well, I feel like its so cool… why can’t I learn it too. I think my hunger for learning is a great thing, but sometimes the motives behind it are kind of ego-related.

I have tried to learn and be so many things in my life, sad to say, most of the time it was not for me, to make me happy, or to be a good person. It was a lot of ego, because I wanted to appear a certain way to others, I always had a really strong fear of people not liking me. When I studied at college I was the most hated girl in the whole college, no one liked me and I had no friends at all. I think from this and from some childhood roots, I gained a really strong emotional attachment to the opinions and thoughts of others. Someone elses compliments or criticism could ruin me or build me to an incredible level.

 When we break down ourselves and think about it.. how crazy can we be to base our feelings on someone.. when they themselves are so unstable, their thoughts change as do their actions, how can we allow them to sway us or to damage or to uplift us?

I have recently come to see that to truly follow our passions, we must be true to ourselves, be true to what we want, what we really think about something. We need to get away from doing things to be cool, but to do things that are right… from the inside out. I won’t be stopping learning about bikes, because I am interested, but I have to admit, I am far far far away from ever being able to call myself a bike mechanic or to say that I know something about bike repair and making bikes. My knowledge is rudimentary and so are my skills.. and that is ok, because I am in a position where I am learning and growing everyday, I am learning when all those other people help me put together my bike, I am watching and yes I am doing what I can. However I am no expert… I may never be, today I learn… tomorrow…. who knows. 

Its really ok to not be good at something, to be a beginner, to be dumb sometimes, to not get things, but I think we have to admit it more. I often tell people a lot of stories about who I am… ‘Oh I own a business…’… ‘Oh I repair bikes’… ‘Oh I used to be a dancer’… yeah there are truth in all the things I say about myself… but I don’t feel ready or qualified to say that I am really able to do those things perfectly yet. I learnt that if you tell people an uplifted story of yourself, if you brag and exaggerate about who you actually are… you cannot learn properly. Because imagine this…. Let’s put it on simple terms… you go to school and tell the teachers you are sooo smart, you are a genius (but really you are normal intelligence), you tell them how you did this and that… they think… wow… and put you in the hardest class… its too hard.. your learning jump was too high… you will sit there and not understand a word of what is being said. We should be on the level we are supposed to be, then when people give you advice, or when you get stuck in a situation where you have to explain yourself or really give some proof of your knowledge, you won’t be shitting your pants, because you were bullshitting everyone the whole time and actually you are bullshit. None of us are bullshit, we are all something great, but what I really am is who I want to be.

I know that I am not an expert in anything, I can accept it. I know I am no business genius, not an amazing entrepreneur, not a mathematical mind, I am not building an empire. I am not putting myself down when I say these things, because I do know who I really am. I understand that I am really working on myself, from the inside to the outside, I know that I am someone who can contribute and who can make peoples lives better, I know that I am able to do many, many things… because I am willing to try, I am brave.. I am all those things and I can back them up, because it is really me… and I am proving it every single day.  I know that with all the things I can do, all the things I am learning, all the things I really and truly am, at the core of me I have enough. 

Think about this… if they stripped you down naked, took away all your frills, props and accessories. If you had to be real… with nothing on you at all, except all that is in you. What would you be? And who would you be? Because without all this hipster, biking, tattoo, business, designing, dancing, artistic pile of shit stuff that I own and that I have on me… I know that what I am without it all is what really counts… I am a small person, I have not always been good, I have not always been right, I am a very small person, just like everyone else, but I am trying, I am here today because I am trying to move forward and to make this life the best it can be. I hope that I never forget it. 

The subtle art of Rejection

When you feel that you cannot be good at anything in life, and all your talents and skills are meaningless in today’s society… do not give up… there is one thing you can become skilled in and learn to handle that will help you in you future. REJECTION is a scary word for all of us, when we get rejected in any area of our lives our ego is hurt and its hard for us to feel confident in ourselves. However I have been making many a mental switch these days, figuring out why certain things trigger negativity and depression in our lives. I have realized that although it is hard to be rejected, I can learn to handle it in the right way, so that every rejection inspires me to achieve more, be better and understand others.

THE REJECTION CHALLENGE

When I was in Graz I read an interesting article about a guy who experienced a heavy love rejection, it had been so hard for him that he had become a total introvert and didn't go out anymore or talk to people because of his fear. He realized how crippling it had become to him and decided to take action to get himself more used to being rejected. In order to do this he set about getting one rejection every day, he would ask people absurd things and challenge himself to be in rejectable situations so that he could toughen himself to those situations. If you think about it, one person telling you no to something has no indication of the real evaluation of your life or skills, most people’s perspective of you or of what you are doing when they tell you ‘no’ is more of a direct reflection of them then of you. The more times we put ourselves out there with the possibility of being rejected in any thing, there are also more chances of being accepted. If you try more, you will probably lose more, but also probably win more.

I set about making myself a similar challenge to this guy, every day I tried to do one thing that was scary or counter intuitive. What was funny was that I didn’t end up getting rejected as much as I thought, I actually got more accepted. For instance I went to a pub with my friend for a drink, I asked for the manager and requested a job, he asked me to come back for an interview… I was really surprised, but somehow it worked and gave me a great feeling of confidence.  I didn't keep the challenge up for the whole month of February, but the times when I did try it made me realize that sometimes we are not trying anything because of fear of not getting a positive answer.

There is a quote that I guess we all know, it says ‘fortune favors the brave’. The more accepting we are to say YES to more things and not to fear the answers and responses from others when we suggest something, the more chances we have for something to go right. I want to create more opportunity for opportunities in my life, by asking more questions, being more bold, and not being afraid of the response. 

The Visa Battles

The bureaucratic battle that every foreigner fights when they try to stay in Serbia longer then 3 months. 

So… even though you may think to yourself that not many foreigners want to live or invest in Serbia and that you would be welcomed with open arms when you announce that your idea is to stay in the country and make your life here… you are wrong.Getting your visa in Serbia can be a confusing and frustrating procedure, however if you see it in the right way, with a twinkle in your eye and a view of how funny everything is really… you can see the comedy in the whole situation and like me… enjoy it.

Visa time for me has ranged in levels of pressure and fear. Sometimes it seemed to be smooth sailing and very little hassle and sometimes…  it was hell. 

So first of all, If you are a visitor to Serbia for no longer then 3 months, you do not need a visa. What you must do, however, is announce at the local police station that you are here. This must be done within 24 hours of arriving, they can check this by the stamp on your passport when you entered the country. If you are entering with and ID card, its much easier to be less visible and you have more flexibility. I suggest that you enter with your ID card if you have one. I however, have only a passport and its pretty much full of Serbia entry and exit stamps, and also visa’s (which take up one whole passport page, so my passport looks crazy full).  When you go to the police station to announce that you are here… TA DA… find the foreigners office, in Novi Sad its on the 3^rd floor of the police station. You should go there with your passport and with the contract of the house of the place you are staying during your visit. If you are staying with a helpful friend, I suggest that they go with you to tell the officials that you are staying with them and just to talk in Serbian and make it all much easier.  If you are staying in a hotel, I think you can get a paper from the hotel stating that you are staying there, and some registered document, but you should ask, because I am not sure.

So if you are staying for longer in Serbia, there are a few different kinds of visa’s you can get, I think they are

1.       NGO visa

2.       Student visa

3.       Work visa

Funnily enough I have had all three. When we first came to Serbia we were students (studying Serbian language), then we set up an NGO and got our visa’s through that, after we started CE, I got myself a nice shiny business visa. It was a bit frustrating to switch to the business visa after the other ones, because you could only get it first for 3 months, then for 6, then for 9 and finally for one year… No matter what time they give you, you have to pay the same amount. I had to have a business visa while working at CE and it was not a problem for me to get this, because the CE business was on my name and I had a lot of papers to back up my work in Serbia.

Visa application form

There is a different office for each visa type you need, so when you go there find the right room. Now the next things that happen to you may be very confusing, as most of the time the people in the foreigners office do not speak English with you. I have still never spoken in English with any one of them, except for with one girl who had to translate for me during a very difficult paperwork moment, when I insisted that they get someone to explain to me what they were saying. Shouting angrily at my passport and then at me just was not going to get through to me what I needed to do to make it happen, and yes I got my translator.

Like most bureaucratic situations, the power of the people in the office is mostly reliant on the fact that they try to make you fearful. DO NOT BE AFRAID, so many times they have made me feel like I was doing something wrong or that they were upset that I did not understand, but now I grew some balls and I really don’t care what reaction I get from them. Its my right to live and work here under the laws of this country and however they feel should not affect it. If you need to go with a friend, you can, but sometimes they don’t let them into the actual office with you when they are talking… so you have to be prepared for that too. They should give you a paper with the requirements for your visa, the things you need to bring with you, it will be in Serbian, ask your friend or whoever you are staying with (or me if you are in Novi Sad and I am too) to help you.

If you are renewing your visa, you need to remember that you must renew your visa one month before it expires, this is VERY important. There will be big problems if you forget or don’t manage to make it… check the expiry date and try to come at least a month and a half before, because it will take you about a week or so to fill the application and bring them the required papers .

One time I was late in my application, there was not a month left on my time in the country. I went with my lawyer to the office and a huge argument followed. It was all in Serbian, the ladies seemed very angry and my lawyer was also shouting, in the end they gave me the visa. When we left, I asked the lawyer what happened and how they were behaving, and he was like ‘oh she was a sweet girl’… I was shocked, apparently they weren’t angry at all but just having a normal discussion about it. Serbian people can get pretty passionate and if you don’t understand the language you can think they are mad when they are just expressing themselves.

In the beginning when I would go for my visa’s, I was very afraid and flustered every time. They were never happy to see me and always made a scene. During the time when the other owner of CE got deported from the country it was really hard to keep cool in the visa office as they just seemed to want to make trouble for us. I remember one time when they were hassling the others I got so upset that I went into the room and asked they angrily what was the problem exactly, they asked me to leave, I did not, I demanded and explanation to the girls as to what exactly they needed to do and I demanded that it was in English. They got very upset and shouted at me ‘WHAT DO YOU WANT’, and I shouted back ‘I WANT TO STAY IN THIS COUNTRY’, they said ‘you can’, I told them that I could not if they were deporting all my friends and then I was told I must leave the room . When I went to do my papers they were extremely rude to me, I felt my cheeks getting hot and red and the frustration built up inside of me finally I told the translator ‘Can you translate this for me… Why are you so rude? I am living here, working here, paying taxes and trying to make the country better, I am not a criminal and you are treating me like one, can you tell meplease… why are you so rude to me’. There was total silence then she said ‘No one is being rude to you here’. ‘YES YOU ARE’ I said and left the room. When I came back with my papers, they handled them quietly and no one said a thing. Even though I don’t think its good to lose your temper or to be unkind or impolite to people, its important also to realise that you have rights and you should be allowed to at least understand the situation without being made to feel like you have done something wrong.

In October 2013, when all CE crew had been denied visa’s for Serbia, it seemed as if I would also get mine denied. Not for a real paperwork problem, but because of the political problems we were facing here. For this visa application I was called for a special interview with the chief of police, I went with my lawyer and with an official court translator. The police inspector went over every detail of mine and CE’s finances and asked a lot of questions, thankfully I understood what to answer and what to avoid. After the meeting I was told to wait while they decided what to do with me, when I came to the police station again and they told me I had got my visa, I was so happy I was jumping up and down and smiling so much… even the visa officials smiled a bit and congratulated me. It shouldn’t really be this hard, but it was.

So guys if you are going to stay in Serbia, and you want to get your visa here, be prepared but don’t be intimidated. Most things here sound harder then they really are, and actually, many people before you have gone through the same procedure, and endured it, and if they can, so can you. DO NOT try to live in Serbia without a visa if you want to work here or do some serious project, because it is not easy and you can get deported, if you do get deported and on the wrong side of the law, there Is almost nothing you can do to get out of it or get help, you just have to leave… which is not so bad either… just you have to continue your life in another place.

If you are in a long term relationship with a Serbian person, it is also possible to get your visa in that way. I know sometimes we have talked about faking it with one of our friends, though we never actually did it, so I don’t know how hard it is. Of course if you are getting married you can get a visa… but you still have to get it and don’t have automatic right to stay.

Something else to mention is that some lawyers offer to help foreigners with their visa, for a set fee they can do all the work for you. However I do not suggest it, we got ripped off this way with one lawyer who did not do his job on time, and this is one reason for some of the deportation of the CE owners. Also its not that difficult, you can do it yourself and no matter how complicated they make it seem, its perfectly fine for you to go and do your own paperwork. It doesn't even take that much time, just a bit of running around and once you are used to it and have done it a few times, you will know what to do.

So its actually visa month for me and that’s why I am writing this post, hope it’s a help and I hope you are all successful in any endeavour you are trying to do in Serbia. If you need assistance in any way, you can always contact me if I am in Serbia. 

My volunteer visa from a while ago

Its Valentine’s Day

Time to appreciate all the love that is around us every day

Sometimes we feel like we don’t have one special person to celebrate with and forget that we have so many wonderful people and so much love surrounding us all the time. If I feel lonely or sad, I just remember all the times when I have really felt alone and lost with no one around me, and also that there are many people all over the world who don’t have the privilege of being surrounded with beautiful people who are close friends and who are giving me so much love, affection and pleasure every day just by being there.

All I can think is LUCKY ME, lucky me to have such good friends and to have a heart that can feel love and true oneness with people that I have met. To live in a place where there are people that are truly beautiful from inside out and that I really appreciate and think are great. If I really think about it, almost my whole life I have found lovely people to share my heart with. Lucky me!

Some of the lovely things I am thankful for today (and I am not just pretending to make myself feel better on Valentines day)

My family, 6 brothers and sisters who are honest, funny and inspiring people

My life in Serbia, with my good friends who are just brilliant in every way

My friends in England, who I shared so many beautiful moments with, who made me laugh all the time and I had so many crazy moments with.

My new life in Graz, the girls that I live with, my ultimate wing-men friends, the people who are just nice for no reason, and all the support and friendship they gave, even though they don’t know me so well.

My CE team,  the crew that is so honest and good from the inside out, that every single person on the team is someone who I genuinely love. What a blessing to be able to work with such amazing, kind and talented people, who push me forward in my life and also fill it with fun and laughter.

The crew at ERDE, the new people that are so fun to work with, I am so thankful to work somewhere that I enjoy with people that are chilled and lovely.

When I think about all these things, I have to smile and realize… LUCKY ME, what a great life I have. If I was someone else and I looked at my life.. I would be jealous, I am jealous of me.  If 5 years ago, someone had shown me a picture of what my life would be like today, I just wouldn't have believed it, I wouldn't have been able to imagine the lovely, beautiful things that I am blessed with. I can’t believe how lucky I am, to have my bike, to ride every day, to laugh with people I love, to work towards a goal that I am sure of, to share my life with good friends, to be strong enough to work-out, to cook whatever I want, to be financially independent, to be able to see the world in this way. What will life look like for me in 5 years? The coolest thing is that there is no way of saying what it will bring. There is not one area of my life I have certainty about, only that it will change. We are on the brink of opening CE in Graz, who knows what will happen from here? Who knows what adventures await even today, let alone in the next 5 years. I have to close my eyes and just thank God for everything he has brought me through, to and towards… It’s a wonderful  life. 

The Say YES month is here…. This is a perfect time for everyone to take full advantage of me!!!

First I want to do a short recap on January, It was meant to be my month for working on organisation and business. It was definitely a business oriented month, and I did improve on certain organisational things, such as my work-out schedule. On the whole I don’t think I am really a lot more organised, but my business life does seem to be moving forward in many ways. I have realized also that I am totally different from the girl who wrote the happiness project… ha! Its very hard for me to think about writing down every little thing and creating so many charts, goals and lists. Never mind all of that, the most important thing is that I can stay focused on improvement and do my very best, after all I am trying to show myself what I can do… and not comparing with anyone else. Actually January has been a say YES month, as I have had so many new experiences and took the leap into some things that I really did not think I would be comfortable with, and it’s been great.

My first SAY YES in February was that I was offered the opportunity to go to learn Indian cooking at a friends house with his mother. I am so tired here and its hard to think of doing something productive at the end of a day at CE, but with my new resolution in my mind, I went along to learn (also Indian cooking is one of my passions… so Its not so hard) It was not only a great learning experience, but I also connected super well with my Indian cooking instructor, and had some great talks.

My second SAY YES achievement was that I went bouldering with my friend, climbing up walls with random rocky holds is very arm strengthening. When she invited me, I knew it was a perfect SAY YES moment and went ahead and did it, so glad I did.

One cool thing about doing SAY YES things is that you get to connect with people who you wouldn’t normally meet or hang out with. The two activities that I did made me some new friends and both led to really interesting and deep conversations.

I think this year I am re-connecting with my old tender self, I seem to be getting more and more emotional in both directions. I haven’t for so long felt real sympathy and compassion for problems in the world and other people’s difficulties, recently I have been feeling so moved by each and every moment that is happening, its kind of like my life has been brought into colour. I also have found everything much more funny and relaxing, everything is making me laugh and my friends are bringing me so much joy, I can definitely take more of that and want to stay in this place. I feel its better to be emotional, I cannot stand the feeling that I cannot feel anything, it feels like I am pretty much dead. Last year was so much of feeling nothing that I am enjoying the deep emotions and powerful feelings that have come at me. 

Alll that to say, February is here, I will be trying as many new experiences as come my way, I will be saying YES to love in every form and fighting for improvement. That's all for now